Breakdown at Church

I don't know about anyone else....but having a breakdown at church is like the most embarrassing thing ever!! I was just fine for the first 3 1/2 hours but when it was time to pack Jocelyn's backpack up thats when I lost it. I told her to put her toys away and she yelled back, "NO!, You put my toys away!" Well, there went the water works. Not five minutes before did she headbutt me in my cheekbone and I took that like a man, but her talking back to me is like heartbreaking. Lately she has been doing it all the time. She screams at me that she wants a drink, then I tell her to do something and she always yells back NO! I don't want to resort to spanking or flicking her in the mouth when she does it, but I am about to have a huge breakdown if something doesn't change. If she talks back to me I tell her to be nice or go to her bedroom which obviously doesn't work cause she just yells back again with, "NO, you go back to your bedroom!" I am getting to the point of tears right now just thinking about it. The reason the tears came at Church was I had realized where she gets it from. (cause she obviously didn't just come up with it by herself) It comes from ME! Oh, my gosh. Do I really yell that much. I know I get frustrated cause I want her to listen to me and when she doesn't I just freak. What is wrong with me? I have desperately been trying to change but I think it might be too late for Jocelyn. People used to say how well behaved she is and polite and now they look at her and say wow she has a quick mouth doesn't she?! It breaks my heart. I need help and some major advice. Or I think I will be going to the looney bin by Christmas!

Maddison's 1st Birthday

Wow was this so much fun. I had my parents come up, Chad from St. George, and Scott, Melissa and baby Makai from Idaho. I can't believe they all came. Too bad Brent and his family couldn't come up. We missed them a lot. Anyways, the party went great. Maddie was so adorable and everyone just soaked her all in. I can't beliefe she is already one. She has grown up way too fast. I am starting to get baby hungry again but that can't happen anytime soon. Cause we need to finish our basement so we have some more room. Thank you to everyone who came to the party. We really appreciate it so much. I love you all.

Birthday Party

Jocelyn's birthday party was really fun. I spent all day inside and Kory spent all day outside getting ready for the party. I don't think I sat down till it was time for bed. She had so much fun. She asks everyday if all of her friends can come play again. The kids dressed up and played like crazy. We had a pinata so the kids were high off of sugar when they went home. Anyways, it was really fun and I hope to do it again but not anytime soon!

Manicure

I bet you are wondering why I would make a title like manicure......well let me tell you. This birthday party thing is turning out to be way more work than I planned. This whole week, every night when Kory gets home, we go out in the yard and shovel rock over and over. Then when the beds are cleared we go shovel sand. Then when the sand fills us the beds I dig holes and plant some plants and flowers. Why, do you ask? Cause Kory says so. He wants the yard to look magnificient for the birthday party. So, today I had to go with both girls to a nursery and pick out some more flowers. That is an experience all in itself. It's not like they have shopping carts that I can put them in. So here I am holding Maddison with a purse on the other arm and Jocelyn on a wheel barrow pushing it around with sweat dripping down my face. There were some men there and not one asked me if I needed help! I thought I lived in Utah! Anyways, it's not like gardening gloves help all that much. My nails are breaking and I am getting blisters. So all in all I really need to go relax and get a manicure. Let my hands be complete pampered when this is over!!

Jocelyn's 3rd Birthday Dinner!

So we went to The Pizza Factory for Jocelyn's birthday dinner. We got a pizza made with her favorite toppings.....Olives and extra cheese. It was different but good. The waitress looked at us like we were crazy and we had to tell her that's what the kid wants! She is so weird with her food choices. I hope as she gets older she develops new tastes. Anyways, the dinner went well, after we ate we gave her one of her presents cause the other ones are coming to her on Saturday for her birthday party. We got her a Sleeping Beauty barbie doll and Prince Phillip too! She was so excited! She had to sleep with them last night. It was so cute. I can't wait for the movie to come out on October 7th!! Plus while I was at the Disney Store they told me that Pinnocio, Beauty and the Beast, and Snow White are being released next year! I am so excited! My collection will almost be complete! At the end of the night when the girls were in bed Kory and I were talking about when Jocelyn was born and I just started crying. I can't believe how fast she has grown. She gets cuter and cuter everyday. I just hope that she knows how much I love her and that I would do anything for her.

Daddy helping her.

Never Easy

So I have a lot going on right now. I have been trying to potty train Jocelyn and that is up and down. Not looking forward to this weekend cause we are going to my nephews wedding up in Logan and she doesn't now how to go on the big toilet yet. So we are going to have to put her in pull-ups and pray that she will do good. I had to take Jocelyn to the doctors office today cause whenever she gets a bug bite it gets HUGE!! So I was worried and he said she is just one of the few who will always have a bigger reaction than other kids. Until the swelling goes down we just have to cover it up cause it isn't very cute!!
Today is also packing day cause we have to leave in about an hour and I swear I am always running around like a chicken with it's head cut off. I never get everything packed that I need to and Kory gets on me about how unprepared I am. If things would just go smooth during the day than it would be ready in time. But between going to the doctor and Jocelyn picking her nose so deep she got a nose bleed, I finally got everything ready. So hopefully when Kory gets home it will be smooth sailing. So until next time..... have a good weekend, and don't play too hard!!

Gorgeous Girls

The girls at Sara Oldson's Wedding with Grandma Jan and Grandpa Dale. They just look totally cute in their gorgeous dressing that Grandma Jan bought them for Easter. We had so much fun at Sara's wedding she looked just absolutely beautiful and her colors were perfect. Jocelyn and Grandpa Dale are dancing to Enchanted's Happily Ever After theme song. Can a girl get any more girly than Jocelyn. She is like the ultimate Princess finatic. Everything my mom wished I would have been at that age. Sorry mom! And yes, those girls are done with the curling iron cause my girls have stick straight hair!

4th of July

Our 4th of July trip was great! We went to Delta this year and loved it. It might be a small town but it does everything any big city does. First we went to the parade, than the park, and later that night we went to the fireworks show that starts right after the Derby. Jocelyn loved it. She had to cover her ears cause the fireworks were too loud! (they really weren't but thats Jocelyn for ya!) Can't wait till the next 4th.

Maddie's Big Blue Eyes!!

Maddison has the biggest blue eyes ever! Luckily I was able to capture them wide open. She is just so adorable that I sent this picture in to America's Cutest Babies of 2008 contest and she won one of the spots in the book coming out this fall! I can't believe I actually make cute babies!! haha

Missing Home

So I am totally missing home right now. It sucks not having your own place of refuge. Not to mention missing Kory a ton. The other night Jocelyn came up to me and asked if "daddy was ever going to come home soon." Boy did that make the tears start coming. It is hard keeping my daughters away from their dad. Especially Maddison considering she is at a young age where stranger anxiety starts to set in. Needless to say, I need to go home! Home is where your heart is and my heart is with Kory!

Crazy.....Hazy.....

So today was decided that Saturday me and the girls are going to go to California for a couple of weeks till we can figure out what is going on with my house! Mold, mold, mold..... I hate mold!! Just don't miss me too much!! haha